August 19, 2014

A whole new world

It has to be documented.
The girls first day of all day Preschool and Kindergarten at Olmsted Elementary.
Also known as my terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
There is a stigma that comes with kiddos starting Kindergarten and "letting your babies go" that is so so so hard, for mom's especially. Since the girls were born, I dreaded the day that I would have to "send them off to Kindergarten." But it just seemed so far way. Well, that day was yesterday. And let me tell you, it was actually harder than I thought it would be.
Let me back up a little bit and explain why...
Since the girls were born, I've been lucky and blessed enough to work part time. I worked three full days a week, which left me with a four day weekend, every week. (Friday - Monday) It really was perfect. I felt like the girls and I got the best of both worlds. We were able to stay home together two extra days each week, yet they were able to still maintain social/academic skills by being in daycare the other three days.
So, when I thought about Lidia starting Kindergarten this Fall, I knew something would have to change with my work schedule. The plan was for me to switch hours around at work. This would mean I would still work part time, but I would work every day, just shorter hours. That way I would be able to take Lidia to and from school, and we wouldn't have to pay for before and after care. But what to do with Ms. Carly? She would be in preschool, but what about before/after care for her since she would only go to preschool for 3 hours a day and I would be working about 6 hours a day? I knew Lidia's elementary school had a preschool program. Turns out, their preschool program is only an ALL DAY preschool program for four year olds. I wasn't so sure about this. Sending my oldest to Kindergarten and MY BABY to ALL DAY PRESCHOOL in the same year, on the same day?! No, just no. I couldn't imagine it. At all. But I knew that if it was even a slight possibility that we wanted her to do this program, that I'd have to register her immediately. Many full time working parents want their preschool kiddos enrolled in this program because it is decently priced and the price includes the preschool and before/after care. So, I registered her. Not knowing if she would get in, or if we would even send her. But better to be safe than sorry, right? And...she got in.
So, after talking to friends and family, trying to get someone to say, "Nah, don't send her to full day preschool. You will figure something else out. Something better!" I never got that answer. I always got, "Yes, that would be great for her! They would be in the same school! They will see each other too! It'd be easy for pick up/drop off for you!" Etc. Etc. Etc. So, I  knew we would send her, I just didn't want to. I wanted to still have one extra day with her. Keep her from "all day school" just one more year. Keep her a baby a little longer. I had Lidia's old preschool on the back burner too in case I chose last minute to send her there and figure out alternative before/after care.
But God has other plans. He put it on my heart to register Carly for all day preschool months ago for a reason. Because... I got a new job! I will still be working for the same company, just a different position within a different group. And I will be full time. For the first time in five years. So, Lidia starting Kindergarten and putting Carly in full day preschool was absolutely the right decision. There really was no other option. And the timing could not have been more perfect for all of us either. I don't start my new position until September 2nd, therefore I am able to take them to and from school a little bit for the first few weeks. It just could not have worked out any better. Any major life decisions that come up, always have perfect timing. God's timing. And I'm so grateful.
But that didn't make yesterday any easier. Yesterday, I sent both of my babies off to spread their wings and fly.... all day. And since I haven't started my new job yet, I still have Mondays off. So, I had all day yesterday to myself. Which probably wasn't the best idea. I should've made plans to keep myself busy after sending BOTH of my BABIES to school on the same day. But instead I cried. Walking down the hallway after dropping them off. All the way to the car. In the car. At home. In bed when I got home (yeah, I was pretty pathetic ha!) All morning. Then I picked myself up and enjoyed the rest of the (quiet) day, until I got to pick those babies back up from school! 20 minutes early, I might add :) I had several people check up on me, which I was grateful for. My mom said it best, "They are having a great time! They are safe. And by 6pm, you will be tired of them being tired and crabby from being exhausted from the first day." Aint that the truth? And they were. Tired and exhausted. And I did get a little frustrated ha! Such is life. Mr. Fritz was also so sweet. He brought home flowers for each of us for surviving the first day. He's the best. The girls thought it was the coolest thing ever and felt so special!
So somehow, I turned their first day of school post into an "all about my feelings post" and I don't want it to be all about me! It was just a huge day in ALL of our lives! So, about the girls... THEY DID GREAT! They didn't cry when I dropped them off, and their teachers said they did great. They had lots of stories to tell, and were so excited about school! Lidia already made a new (boy) friend, of course. She said his name was Tye and he was so cute and he held her hand. Her favorite part about the day was playing at recess and seeing her friends from preschool, and doing a shaving cream project. She says she can't wait to show me a special project she made for me either, but I have to wait for it. She told me that if you get in trouble, you have to put your head down on the table. She also said, "I will NEVER get in trouble! I will NEVER have to put my head down!" haha my little OCD, teachers pet, perfectionist. Love her. Carly, on the other hand, didn't give up as much info. She said her favorite part of the day was seeing Lidia in the lunchroom and giving her teacher a hug. She like playing and singing too. That's about all I got! But they were so excited to go to school again this morning for their second day... which I'm so glad about! I was worried they would be excited the first day, and then sad the second day. But nope!
Sooo...long story, LONG. Full time school. Full time work. This is our whole new world. I'm excited and scared for it all at the same time.